Ghazal

Why can’t we seem to keep it together?

Dear brother, we’ll find answers together.

Always there is something to keep us stale,

Until we find the next time together.

Until the next place we shall meet again,

Remember to keep it together.

Whenever I think of our varied past.

I think of all that we’ve done together.

What goals have we? We live to find an aim,

And we will do what it takes to get there.

Connected, we are yet we are so far,

Speak to others we do, not together.

My aim of past to live beyond your life,

Your life a recent chase meant to get her?

Dreams of the past, never of future times,

For we forge our futures together.

When shall we meet? The answer I know, yet

The times can never see us together.

We crash and burn, we stop and stare, we find

That never mind the distance, we’re together.

Sonnet

Where shall I find someone who cares for me?

My brother, none will ever be enough

To know and see what ‘tis in me you see:

Three-fourths score years of memory did rough

No one can say they have what I possess,

A guardian angel here watching over,

Someone I know that will myself assess

And be there still, leaving me here never

An angel you may be, for what am I?

One that never repaid a scrap o’ kindness

One that from you giving kindness did shy,

I will be one that shall this trend undress

On moving on, I will refrain from this,

To be a brother worth an empty list

Ode & Elegy

Ode to the Ace of Spades

To most, simply a card without a price,

The ace of spades, a card unequaled in

Authority, when used too much a vice,

A card of splendor, little like its kin

To me a sign, a representation

Of memories lost long ago within

A bond of brotherhood, revelation

To what our own relationship has been

Foremost a card, a symbol next, to us

A gateway to the ghost that is the past,

A van, a deck, a song, a face, a bus

A card that makes me calm and stand aghast

Elegy of Grandparents Lost

Not one, not two, not three, but four I lost

My grandparents gone to a better place

Kind souls now extinguished, peace at a cost

For us on earth, a part we can’t replace

Full to the brim with faith, unending strength

So wise, so calm, so filled with peace and grace,

The happiness I’ll never find, the strength

I’ll never have, now that they’re in their place

Although there’ll be some things I’ll never see,

I know there’ll be the peace I find today

A peace that only one above can bequeath

I’ll never have to wonder what will stay

Concrete poem

                                                                  Away                                                                       

                                                               Not Home                                                                   

                                                       Feeling        Tired                                                               

                                                    Trying                 Hard                                                           

                                                 Little                         Brother                                                    

                                          Attempting To Overcome The Other                                              

                                 Reaching For                                Something Unknown                           

                        Hoping For                                                 Something Not Shown                  

        Looking Forward                                                            Disappointed By Today            

                                                                                                                                                   

                                                                Social                                                                          

                                                         Working Hard                                                                   

                                                  Living In The Moment                                                             

                                            Doing What He Wants In Life                                                       

                                            Already There, Not Searching                                                      

                                               Always There For Others                                                           

                                                              Caring                                                                           

                                                          Big Brother                                                                                                                                                                    

Dynamite Poem

Brother

Tall, Introverted

Playing, Reading, Studying

Book, Computer, Computer, Book

Playing, Working, Socializing

Tall, Extroverted

Brother

Relationship Haiku

Brothers

Marked the same by only the near-black windows to the soul

Yet so very alike inside that window

With personalities as different as oil and water

All ambiguous ambition

Is one, with little to hold on

To, besides the fragile cliff of insecurity

The same, yet at puzzling peace

Content, but at what price

To either one?

In simpler terms…

I-search phase 1 research questions

1.      Will I be able to afford the education required for the job?

2.      Will I be able to deal with the long, unreliable hours?

3.      Will I have any motivation to become a doctor?